Portrait my Son took of me 4-5 years ago.

I have very few pictures of me tbh and I am very cool with that. I have never posted this picture anywhere because of silly things like it could open things like a discussion with my ex wife why I drive at 120 which was then the original reason and then 50 other reasons solidified it leaving me with something i wanted to share to keeping it hidden.

I am not that person anymore who is one that controls himself by a thousand invisible rules that conflict with each other leaving me frustrated and confused. I breathe the same air I used to but now I understand I am strong enough to handle what comes my way. If the past 5 years has not killed me, then I need to rise above that fear and shift into a space without fear and choose different choices then in the past. I chose to search out what controlled me and reverse engineered it from there. Our lives are evidence to what we want if we can slow down enough to create a plan that is worth subscribing to. Break and recreate that plan for ever and to never settle and always know processing emotions is a life long thing and not something that happens on the side when you get time. I want to choose to love with intention and those intentions be ceded in integrity to keep more balanced. Not the way of the world now so I need to also be wise and not a trusting sucker. I am that strong as well, I have over a decade of experience working inside federal prisons. Ive seen the full spectrum of life.